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As I'm avoiding my [ profile] reel_spn fic like woah, I thought I would clean this one up and post it. Maybe getting rid of the 1247547474848 fics languishing away on my hard drive will help me stop procrastinating.

Title: The Special Ones
Author: [ profile] nu_breed
Pairing: Peter/Sam/Dean
Rating: R
Word count: 356
Summary: It's different when Dean's there.
Notes: Set in the same 'verse as In a State, More You Understand and Share of Bitterness.

It’s different like this, when it’s the three of them. Not less intense, but less… painful.

When he’s there. When Dean’s there, Peter doesn’t have to focus on pain and death and everything he’s destined for. Dean absorbs it and stops the two of them from getting caught up in it all, getting addicted to the exhilaration of what happens when Sam and Peter touch.

Like always, when Sam kisses him, Peter has flashes. Flashes of all the people, all the deaths they’re responsible for. But when he whimpers into the kiss, Dean’s there, pressing against his back, helping him out of his clothes and brushing his lips against Peter’s neck.

“Gonna fuck you now,” Dean whispers, his voice rough and full of want, warm breath making Peter’s skin prickle, “Make you forget.”

Dean makes it easy for Peter to forget. He’s rough and hard and he takes what he wants, but he’s also slow and careful and methodical and Peter thinks that Dean is just a mass of contradictions that nobody will ever understand.

Almost nobody.

Sam and Dean understand each other just like he and Nathan do and sometimes when Peter's with them, he wants Nathan there so bad it aches.

But Nathan isn't there and Peter needs this. Needs to forget. It’s why he keeps coming back. Why he’s happy to be here, caught right in the middle of this screwed-up, wrong, brotherly thing that makes him feel like he's intruding. So weighted down with need and want and sometimes he has to look away, because he thinks that if he doesn’t, he might just go blind from it.

Peter isn't an idiot. He knows it’s all fake, temporary. Knows that as soon as this is over, he won’t be able to pretend anymore, but he’s tired. So fucking tired of carrying this thing on his shoulders. On a good day it just makes him exhausted. On a bad day he wonders whether there’s any point going on, when everything feels so fucking inevitable.

He knows Sam's tired as well. Knows that when Peter’s not there, when they’re alone, that Dean makes Sam forget too.


Date: 2007-08-01 10:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh god, they're all so delicously fucked up. This makes me want to get caught up on Heroes like, STAT!

As always, gorgeous writing and imagery.

Date: 2007-08-02 01:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

They are fucked-up, aren't they? You MUST catch up on Heroes, YES.

Thanks for the kind words, sweetie.

Date: 2007-08-01 01:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oh I love this, love the way Peter thinks about Sam and Dean.

Date: 2007-08-02 01:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thanks so much, darlin'. So pleased you liked it!

Date: 2007-08-01 02:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
i love the way this feels, hurty and right and sort of darkly hopeful, and i'm always excited to see you've written a little more!

Date: 2007-08-02 01:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

I just can't seem to leave them alone! I'm so glad it comes across in all those ways because that is totally how I see them. Thanks for letting me know it worked for you, hon.

Date: 2007-08-02 09:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I really like this. You capture the emotions well, and I love the pairing.

Date: 2007-08-02 01:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

Thanks so much, so glad you liked it :)

Oh wow. Your ICON. Nnnnnnnggghhhh.

Um, must look away. WOW.

Date: 2007-08-02 02:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Lovely. Very easy to slip into Peter's head and see Sam and Dean's relatinship for what it is and be acceptant of that. I loved the idea that he wanted Nethan there with them too. Very nicely done. Thank you for sharing.

Date: 2007-08-02 09:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you so much, glad you liked it!
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Date: 2007-10-21 07:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oops, I don't know how I missed this. Thank you so much for the feedback and so sorry it took me a while to respond...

Date: 2008-07-27 11:48 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile]
Ooh. Nice. I haven't read too much Heroes fic, because they pretty much lost me after the first season, but I liked this. Great zing of connection, and wonderful fuckedupedness between brothers, Peter seeing shades of him and Nathan in Sam and Dean. Thank you.

Date: 2008-07-27 09:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm so glad you liked it! ♥

Date: 2010-02-06 04:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
This is really great, i loved the end, about Dean making Sam forget too. Best threesome ever.

Date: 2010-02-07 08:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Thank you so much, I'm glad you enjoyed it :)

Date: 2010-02-07 02:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
What is it with people re-reading this story arc today? I needed to go back to some very old-school Heroes fics today with the possibility of the series ending on Monday, and despite the sadness in S1 Peter, it was just gorgeous to read this.

Date: 2010-02-07 08:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I don't know! It's REALLY weird that you and the above commenter both decided to reread it now. But I'm glad it gave you some comfort and that you enjoyed it :)


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